This blog is just like a diary, because i know that no one will read it.
I've been torn apart again. By a boy i thought would change my life. My life will never change. No matter how much i try, ill always be lied to, never loved. Only used for what i can give.

Its obvious that im not pretty enough or skinny enough. Im crash dieting again. Dont get mad at me, its his fault. If only i was skinny. Im aiming for 100 flat. Maybe less. Thats only ten pounds away, no biggie. (no more food) i can do this.

I hate that i love him sometimes. Im week, i give in. Im stupid, destructive, careless, whatever.